Yay i'm finally blogging, thanks to someone who told me they were waiting for me to update this blogspot :) I've been so busy catching up with my own life, that i had no time to sit down and contemplate about it.
Prom was funnnnnnnnnnn and a good experience. Afterprom was whackkkk in comparison to the price i paid ($60) but damn the mansion was niiiiiiiiiiiiice. the night view of hollywood hills can be seen right from the pool area and it was prettty chilll.
Lately, i've noticed a lot of my friends and i talking about our own struggles with boys. Some dealing with immature boys who play the hit & quit, use & dispose game. Some dealing with senseless boys who have no common sense. Some dealing with clingy boys who take no action from our discreet hints. Some dealing with i-have-interest-in-both-of-you-so-i'll-keep-flirting-with-both-since-i'm-not-actually-having-a-"thing"-with-any-of-you type of boys. Some dealing with i-haven't-talked-to-you-since-a-week-ago-so-i-found-another-girl-of-interest type of boys. Some dealing with cheaters. Some of us idiots, just taking months and months and more months and almost a year getting over one person. Boys are stupid and i think we can do just fine without them :) If he is independent, honest, genuine, mature, and loving of you, he'll come find you to stick around, so dont chase after immature little boys.
i wanted to believe it was worth it, but you were not worth my time.
and yay schoooooooooooool is done! well almost :) it seems like everything is just downhilllll and i love it. SAT subject tests are the only thing to worry about as of now, and i am excited for summer 09. lets playyyyyyyyyyyy!
(this blog was so pointless.. and crappy. but just for youuu -_-)
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Monday, May 11, 2009
1 down, 1 more to go
Aw i haven't updated here since months and months ago, :( i stopped writing in my diary toooo
school has been draining every little energy in my body, and i definitely hope it will be worth it in the end because as of now.. i need to bring my ap world grade up up upppppppppp
But today , i experienced taking my very first ap exam. damn! time goes by like *snap* in that room. but all in all, it was an amazing feeeling when the proctor said "please drop your pencils, time is now up. Congratulations, you're finished!" and literally EVERYONE screamed their asses off and hugged one another. AP Bio was, no doubt, a challlllllenge this year. but because benke made it such a rigorous couse with impossible exams, i think all of us were able to walk out of that room with a hugeass smile and with the feeling of 100 lbs being lifted off our shoulders. The test was nottttttt bad, not bad at all. just one more to go! world exam this thurs.
Yiiiiiippee, looking forward, i'm excited for summer! Well not really, im probably gonna be killing myself more than i did throughout the school year, but i like keeping myself busy. keeps my mind off things. anyways, so far my summer consists of UCSB vball camp (WOOHOOoo!), Elite, IPHC, Hoby Leadership Convention, Red Cross Club Camp, internship at Cedars Sinai, and a SMC class. Yayyyy
Finally moved the fuck on. It was about time. :)
school has been draining every little energy in my body, and i definitely hope it will be worth it in the end because as of now.. i need to bring my ap world grade up up upppppppppp
But today , i experienced taking my very first ap exam. damn! time goes by like *snap* in that room. but all in all, it was an amazing feeeling when the proctor said "please drop your pencils, time is now up. Congratulations, you're finished!" and literally EVERYONE screamed their asses off and hugged one another. AP Bio was, no doubt, a challlllllenge this year. but because benke made it such a rigorous couse with impossible exams, i think all of us were able to walk out of that room with a hugeass smile and with the feeling of 100 lbs being lifted off our shoulders. The test was nottttttt bad, not bad at all. just one more to go! world exam this thurs.
Yiiiiiippee, looking forward, i'm excited for summer! Well not really, im probably gonna be killing myself more than i did throughout the school year, but i like keeping myself busy. keeps my mind off things. anyways, so far my summer consists of UCSB vball camp (WOOHOOoo!), Elite, IPHC, Hoby Leadership Convention, Red Cross Club Camp, internship at Cedars Sinai, and a SMC class. Yayyyy
Finally moved the fuck on. It was about time. :)
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Spring Break!
I love blogspot, and how it's always just there for me, providing me with a blank empty page every time.
The long awaited spring break woohooo is finally here. An escape from school and its busy work for a week... sike. Not so much, i have so much to study for and cram, along with spring break assignments from ap classes. The only thing great about my spring break as of now, is simply being able to sleep in. Other than that, it's just a shitload of work and my brain full of stress. I am so not ready for the month of May :(
Whenever weekends come, I always tell myself I'm gonna finish the schoolwork that I've dragged on throughout the week, and squeeze in some study sesh. But i never seem to fail myself in my procrastination habits. I always always always waste all my weekends, and it seems to be happening to my spring break as well.. So far i've wasted Sat, Sun, Mon, & Tues when I could have learned some useful information. It's still not too late.
Recently, i got a pup. We named her Minnie, and she's the cutest thing ever. But within exactly two weeks, i had to give her away. She was getting sick from an allergic reaction to something in the house. I always wanted a puppy thinking it was gonna benefit me and my boredom, and also cus i love dogs. But she was something special, and became a family member to us. She hates being alone, so she'd whine and cry when we left for school/work. When one of us got home, she'd just on all four paws and go crazyyyyyyyy, rolling around, asking to play, tugging at our arms. Theres never a time when she walks around the house alone; she's always on my lap or watching dramas with my mom. She overflowsssss with eh gyo, and loves to give bbobbos. hehehe. Oh and when we take her on a walk, she has to smell every little flower, leaf, tree stump. She's never peed in the house or on her pee mat, she always holds it in until she take her for a walk, and then pees/poops in the grass. It was the hardest thing for me and my mom to deal with her leaving. It's corny but we got teary together thinking about her. The house felt so empty and Minnie was a second daughter to my mom. :(
I miss her so muchhhhhh, but yay im visiting her this Thurs :)
"In three words I can sum up everything that I've learned about life, "It goes on." When the going gets tough, make yourself realize that no matter what your problem is, someone is and always will be fighting a harder battle. Tears don't help problems and whining won't make things better. Have faith but understand that faith makes things possible, not easier. Have hope but understand without doing anything nothing gets done. Be there when people need you, because in order to have friends you must first be one. Make the impossible, possible. Never give up! You only fail when you fail to try. Keep an open mind; you never know what you may learn. Never compromise your standards for anyone, do it for you. Remember that laughter makes the world go round. Beware of the person who has nothing to lose, see through the problem to find the solution. Don't make promises that you can't keep. Keep in mind, those who gossip to you will gossip about you. Say only what you mean, and don't believe everything that you hear because some day the story will be about you. Everyday is a gift, even if it sucks. Count your blessings, not your troubles. Never waste an opportunity to tell someone that you love them, because you never know what tomorrow has in store for you. Give people a second chance, because no one is perfect. Love all that you can, give all that you have, smile away your days, and dream away your nights. "
The long awaited spring break woohooo is finally here. An escape from school and its busy work for a week... sike. Not so much, i have so much to study for and cram, along with spring break assignments from ap classes. The only thing great about my spring break as of now, is simply being able to sleep in. Other than that, it's just a shitload of work and my brain full of stress. I am so not ready for the month of May :(
Whenever weekends come, I always tell myself I'm gonna finish the schoolwork that I've dragged on throughout the week, and squeeze in some study sesh. But i never seem to fail myself in my procrastination habits. I always always always waste all my weekends, and it seems to be happening to my spring break as well.. So far i've wasted Sat, Sun, Mon, & Tues when I could have learned some useful information. It's still not too late.
Recently, i got a pup. We named her Minnie, and she's the cutest thing ever. But within exactly two weeks, i had to give her away. She was getting sick from an allergic reaction to something in the house. I always wanted a puppy thinking it was gonna benefit me and my boredom, and also cus i love dogs. But she was something special, and became a family member to us. She hates being alone, so she'd whine and cry when we left for school/work. When one of us got home, she'd just on all four paws and go crazyyyyyyyy, rolling around, asking to play, tugging at our arms. Theres never a time when she walks around the house alone; she's always on my lap or watching dramas with my mom. She overflowsssss with eh gyo, and loves to give bbobbos. hehehe. Oh and when we take her on a walk, she has to smell every little flower, leaf, tree stump. She's never peed in the house or on her pee mat, she always holds it in until she take her for a walk, and then pees/poops in the grass. It was the hardest thing for me and my mom to deal with her leaving. It's corny but we got teary together thinking about her. The house felt so empty and Minnie was a second daughter to my mom. :(
I miss her so muchhhhhh, but yay im visiting her this Thurs :)
"In three words I can sum up everything that I've learned about life, "It goes on." When the going gets tough, make yourself realize that no matter what your problem is, someone is and always will be fighting a harder battle. Tears don't help problems and whining won't make things better. Have faith but understand that faith makes things possible, not easier. Have hope but understand without doing anything nothing gets done. Be there when people need you, because in order to have friends you must first be one. Make the impossible, possible. Never give up! You only fail when you fail to try. Keep an open mind; you never know what you may learn. Never compromise your standards for anyone, do it for you. Remember that laughter makes the world go round. Beware of the person who has nothing to lose, see through the problem to find the solution. Don't make promises that you can't keep. Keep in mind, those who gossip to you will gossip about you. Say only what you mean, and don't believe everything that you hear because some day the story will be about you. Everyday is a gift, even if it sucks. Count your blessings, not your troubles. Never waste an opportunity to tell someone that you love them, because you never know what tomorrow has in store for you. Give people a second chance, because no one is perfect. Love all that you can, give all that you have, smile away your days, and dream away your nights. "
- Robert Frost
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Vent
- For the longest time, i've been wanting to go to the beach in the pitch dark to just walk along the shore to escape from reality and just feel the chills go down my spine in the cold wind.
- It sucks how things in life don't really go periodically as you want it to. Good things can suddenly come to an end, when you least expect it. I feel like as I go through a period where i notice myself slowly changing, I'm struggling to keep good relationships going. Sometimes it's just the way the situation is carried on and leaving me without a choice, like a friend leaving town for college, or sometimes, it's just me. I'm so closed up and have never found that one friend i can spill all my secrets and frustration to, that it affects my relationships with other people. I find myself having a hard time giving my complete trust to people, that I never really share much about my life to them. I think i dont wanna appear vulnerable or scared to find myself left alone. Whatever the reason may be, i hate it. It makes me appear so conservative and ignorant, but as much as i want to, it's just hard for me to completely open uppppppppppppp. GRRR :(
- i need to set my priorities straight.
- i love and hate memories at the same time. As i look back, so many things happened in my life that i wanna put in a box to keep forever. But then again, there are those that i'd wanna forget forever.
- school sucks, it can kiss my ass. it's my main reason of neverending stress!!!!! May will be the worst month. Summer 09 hurry!
- It sucks how things in life don't really go periodically as you want it to. Good things can suddenly come to an end, when you least expect it. I feel like as I go through a period where i notice myself slowly changing, I'm struggling to keep good relationships going. Sometimes it's just the way the situation is carried on and leaving me without a choice, like a friend leaving town for college, or sometimes, it's just me. I'm so closed up and have never found that one friend i can spill all my secrets and frustration to, that it affects my relationships with other people. I find myself having a hard time giving my complete trust to people, that I never really share much about my life to them. I think i dont wanna appear vulnerable or scared to find myself left alone. Whatever the reason may be, i hate it. It makes me appear so conservative and ignorant, but as much as i want to, it's just hard for me to completely open uppppppppppppp. GRRR :(
- i need to set my priorities straight.
- i love and hate memories at the same time. As i look back, so many things happened in my life that i wanna put in a box to keep forever. But then again, there are those that i'd wanna forget forever.
- school sucks, it can kiss my ass. it's my main reason of neverending stress!!!!! May will be the worst month. Summer 09 hurry!
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Random Post
10 Random Things You May/May Not Have Known About Me :)
1. i like to go shopping aloneee a lot of the times, just me & my ipod.
2. heh i think i get butthurt really easily, but i just don't show it. i'm sensitive :[
3. i have a hard time getting out of my comfort zone and adjusting to changes.
4. i wear flipflops all year longggg, literallyyyy!
5. i don't open up or trust people easily. You'll find me being more of a listener than a talker. However, once you do earn my trust, you have it forever.
6. i have over 40 nail polishes :] i kindaa collect them but not really cus i use them ahaha
7. although i'm not good at it, i like photography and artsy stufff
8. i love tight hugs, late night texts, having conversations while taking a long walk, volleyball, my teddybear sangchoo, writing in my diary, cafes, reading, and coffee.
9. even if i were to dye my hair a diff color, within a few showers, it always comes back to the original color.. boohoo
10. I HATE PEOPLE WHO SMELL BAD! i think scent is one of the first things i notice in a person.
i haven't updated in a while, so i wanted to update.. but i was a bit lazyyyyy
so i just decided to do this :)
1. i like to go shopping aloneee a lot of the times, just me & my ipod.
2. heh i think i get butthurt really easily, but i just don't show it. i'm sensitive :[
3. i have a hard time getting out of my comfort zone and adjusting to changes.
4. i wear flipflops all year longggg, literallyyyy!
5. i don't open up or trust people easily. You'll find me being more of a listener than a talker. However, once you do earn my trust, you have it forever.
6. i have over 40 nail polishes :] i kindaa collect them but not really cus i use them ahaha
7. although i'm not good at it, i like photography and artsy stufff
8. i love tight hugs, late night texts, having conversations while taking a long walk, volleyball, my teddybear sangchoo, writing in my diary, cafes, reading, and coffee.
9. even if i were to dye my hair a diff color, within a few showers, it always comes back to the original color.. boohoo
10. I HATE PEOPLE WHO SMELL BAD! i think scent is one of the first things i notice in a person.
i haven't updated in a while, so i wanted to update.. but i was a bit lazyyyyy
so i just decided to do this :)
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Painful Studying
Taking a short break from all that AP bio crap:
soooooooo :) i think as long as i get monday done with, it will be allll downhilll! my self-centered teachers decided to give out finals and unit exams a week prior to finals week, and it's been keeping me on my toes lately. Monday (135 day) period 1: ap world unit exam part 2, period 3: ap bio effing FINALS, period 5: h. english finals part 1. that whole day is gonna be a pit of hell for me :(
butttttttt, on thursdayyy the last day of finals; that night, senior class + leadership = laser tagging, next day on fridayy is no school and pali winter formallllll, the friday after = Eternity, the friday after = Burbank winter formal. whooopdeeedooooo
oh, and birthday was good this year. :] it was very special and cute. hmmmmmmmm not much to say anymore! okay bye! back to bio................................................................
soooooooo :) i think as long as i get monday done with, it will be allll downhilll! my self-centered teachers decided to give out finals and unit exams a week prior to finals week, and it's been keeping me on my toes lately. Monday (135 day) period 1: ap world unit exam part 2, period 3: ap bio effing FINALS, period 5: h. english finals part 1. that whole day is gonna be a pit of hell for me :(
butttttttt, on thursdayyy the last day of finals; that night, senior class + leadership = laser tagging, next day on fridayy is no school and pali winter formallllll, the friday after = Eternity, the friday after = Burbank winter formal. whooopdeeedooooo
oh, and birthday was good this year. :] it was very special and cute. hmmmmmmmm not much to say anymore! okay bye! back to bio................................................................
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Back to Schoooool
It's now the second week back at schooool, but for some quuuuuueeeer reason i feel like i've been in school forever. It feels like we haven't had our break out, and i'm still anticipating it. :( i still haven't stopped my procrastination, when it was one of the top 3 on my new years resolution. sighhhhhh, when will i get rid of this habit..
Anyhows, :) much has happened this past week or so! both good and bad.. i guesss.
OBAMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA 200999999, SHOUT IT OUTTTTT. we watched his inauguration in my period 1, ap world this morningg and damn he is one FINEEEEEEE man. so handsome, and goodlooking ;) anyways, i'm really excited that he's finally serving his term as his first day today. looking forward to some changes in our nation.
my baby was also stolen several days ago. :[ my baby red, ipod<3 rip.
seeeinggggggg my girls at schoool was good! they are prob the main reason i look forward to school everyday. morning rides with charles is contuining on once again, which is always funnnn and full of stupid conversations HAHAH, and yay seeing the volleyball girls at the end of the day always make up for the crap my teachers feed me.
hm.. what else. i have so many unit exams and finals coming up that are even before finals week. it's stressing me out :( wow someone pray for me.
tehehe but i finally started writing in my diary again.. and it feels good to pour out my thoughts. they're always just trapped in one little corner of me. :]]]
till next time,
byeee blogspot!
i feel so terrible that i'm so bad at expressing my love for my dad. i can say everything to my mom and tell her how much i love her and all, but i get so shy with my papabear. but since i was young, he was the daddy that would go behind my mom's back to buy me games, dolls, and clothes that i asked for. he's the old-schooled, overprotective, naggy papabear but he loves me, and i love you tooooooooooooooooooooooo appa. i know i dont express it much, and all i do is write long letters to you couple of times a year, but i hope you know that i think you're the best dad in the world.
Anyhows, :) much has happened this past week or so! both good and bad.. i guesss.
OBAMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA 200999999, SHOUT IT OUTTTTT. we watched his inauguration in my period 1, ap world this morningg and damn he is one FINEEEEEEE man. so handsome, and goodlooking ;) anyways, i'm really excited that he's finally serving his term as his first day today. looking forward to some changes in our nation.
my baby was also stolen several days ago. :[ my baby red, ipod<3 rip.
seeeinggggggg my girls at schoool was good! they are prob the main reason i look forward to school everyday. morning rides with charles is contuining on once again, which is always funnnn and full of stupid conversations HAHAH, and yay seeing the volleyball girls at the end of the day always make up for the crap my teachers feed me.
hm.. what else. i have so many unit exams and finals coming up that are even before finals week. it's stressing me out :( wow someone pray for me.
tehehe but i finally started writing in my diary again.. and it feels good to pour out my thoughts. they're always just trapped in one little corner of me. :]]]
till next time,
byeee blogspot!
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i feel so terrible that i'm so bad at expressing my love for my dad. i can say everything to my mom and tell her how much i love her and all, but i get so shy with my papabear. but since i was young, he was the daddy that would go behind my mom's back to buy me games, dolls, and clothes that i asked for. he's the old-schooled, overprotective, naggy papabear but he loves me, and i love you tooooooooooooooooooooooo appa. i know i dont express it much, and all i do is write long letters to you couple of times a year, but i hope you know that i think you're the best dad in the world.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Winter Retreat '08
Dec 29-31 WAMC Winter Retreat @ Palomar Mountain, San Diego
awhh, i was so blessed and it was definitely an amazing way to close off the year of '08 :]
having freaking sarah lee as a cabin leader (?!?!) HAHA , boy chats with irene at 2 in the morning , nibbling on midnight snacks , truth or dare with the girls at midnight , hilarious skit practices with dahye our "idea bank" and deborahhhh roee<3 , powerful last night prayer , and the sunny weather + white snow. it was all just faaaaaabulous and i loved being able to spend time with those i really love being with. God really revealed Himself to us in a new way this retreat.
the rest of the pictures are gon be posted on facebook later , so check ittttt ;)
awhh, i was so blessed and it was definitely an amazing way to close off the year of '08 :]
having freaking sarah lee as a cabin leader (?!?!) HAHA , boy chats with irene at 2 in the morning , nibbling on midnight snacks , truth or dare with the girls at midnight , hilarious skit practices with dahye our "idea bank" and deborahhhh roee<3 , powerful last night prayer , and the sunny weather + white snow. it was all just faaaaaabulous and i loved being able to spend time with those i really love being with. God really revealed Himself to us in a new way this retreat.
the rest of the pictures are gon be posted on facebook later , so check ittttt ;)
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