Vent

- For the longest time, i've been wanting to go to the beach in the pitch dark to just walk along the shore to escape from reality and just feel the chills go down my spine in the cold wind.

- It sucks how things in life don't really go periodically as you want it to. Good things can suddenly come to an end, when you least expect it. I feel like as I go through a period where i notice myself slowly changing, I'm struggling to keep good relationships going. Sometimes it's just the way the situation is carried on and leaving me without a choice, like a friend leaving town for college, or sometimes, it's just me. I'm so closed up and have never found that one friend i can spill all my secrets and frustration to, that it affects my relationships with other people. I find myself having a hard time giving my complete trust to people, that I never really share much about my life to them. I think i dont wanna appear vulnerable or scared to find myself left alone. Whatever the reason may be, i hate it. It makes me appear so conservative and ignorant, but as much as i want to, it's just hard for me to completely open uppppppppppppp. GRRR :(

- i need to set my priorities straight.

- i love and hate memories at the same time. As i look back, so many things happened in my life that i wanna put in a box to keep forever. But then again, there are those that i'd wanna forget forever.

- school sucks, it can kiss my ass. it's my main reason of neverending stress!!!!! May will be the worst month. Summer 09 hurry!